Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Living each minute,each day as if you would never get them back again

All you guys are feeling na..ki andy ko kya hua hai..badi senti ban rahi hai....yes dear's iam senti now.But there's a reason behind this.Just in the noon was feeling bugged with my last moment rush for the squeezing in of assignements.So thought lets download some movie.After a long time i was doing that.So i got 'We are Family' on my list.I did not feel like to watch.As it was sounding too emotional and also its KJ movie.So obviously there would a lot emotional drama.But there was no other go.As other top movies i was fed up of watching.Then it was time to get emotional and wet my T-shirt with tears.
The movie started off very well.Its wherein Kajol and Arjun are divorced and thier cute l'll 3 kids are stuck between them and Kajol's soutan Kareena.Everything goes on well untill its revealed that Kajol has cervical cancer .And she would be living only for few days.Baapre all the emotions break out.Laptop ke andhar bhi rona,laptop ke bahar bhi rona...rona hi rona...So it goes on that way...ab kya main saari ki saari kahani sunao..koi kaam dhanda nahin hai kya...obviously yaar hindi movie hai in the end allz well tho hona hi hai.
But when i was just watching it,i felt something that i thought i should share it with all.My sis always beleives live life king size.So do my parents.I used to always ignore it thinking all are getting senti.But today i realised,how true it is.Lets start living this life with each second in it,with each day in it.And you shall be happy ever after.You may never know whether you would be able to watch the sunrise of tomorrow.Because,that's the only secret god has never revealed to mankind.The death.
When you want your wishes to come true,make it come true.Do not wait for tomorrow.
If you love someone very much,please admit to them that yes i love you.Try to keep the loved ones around you happy,a smile can make thier day and they would never forget you.
Live life so beautifully that the almighty would feel proud and honoured that he is your creator.

Love,
Andy

Thursday, September 16, 2010

My Diary

Everyday i think i should pen down some or the other things of my day in my sweet diary.But somtimes never find any time.But i just love the way i write.Honeslty.I can be a good writer.I always can think about that option.Just kidding.No need of doing that funny face for this.
But honestly keeping a diary to pen down your daily updates,its so refreshing.It helps to go back to it anytime whenever you are in a good mood.I do that.I feel my life,the way i have dipicted in my diary in just like another hindi movie.You have fights,romance,friends,jealousy,stubborn,bitchy,so on......No wonder when one day people would definitly hear my name as an author or movie writer.
I feel so good whenever i just look back into those pages which i have written already.I would have mixed emotions and feeling.We go through so much in our lives so smoothly ,isn't it?
Do we anytime get tired of what's going on in our lives?i guess sometime yes.We give up easily.As i have done so many times as per my diary.Just felt so foolish and idioit for my acts.I reacted so wierdly for so many things in my life without even realising that i am hurting my people as well.But that's life.And am not a daily soap zee,sony or Star TV actress who would be so good no matter how bad and monstorus the people around her are.
I have realised one thing.Many disastrous events have occured in my life.But i have never gone away from my diary writing skill.It has always been my dahling.I guess its always important for one to be connected to one's emotion and feeling.And diary can help you very much.You can fight,convince,hate,love anything you want with it.It would not say anything.It would accept you without complaining.Such a sweetheart.Why can't people be that way.We are always judgemental and assumption freaks.
So my advice to those who have this great skill of writing diary,please do not let it go.Its your strength,a mirror ,a shadow of you.Trust it!
Love
Andy

Friday, September 10, 2010

Jealousy-a big bug

"hey andy she is so beautiful na?", "do you know that he got a promotion?","hey you know she sings very well"....god i cannot take it.Really its not the others who cannot take the progress or happiness of others.But its me.Beleive me.Did not realise this till date.But recently when i was attending my regular counselling course this great incident happened.It was life changing as well.
One of my coursemate who also is an indian by origin and also my great friend always would be with me.We would have lot of fun together.But on that day another indian lady came to us and just spoke to her saying hey are you the same lady who used to RJ in the singapore indian music station? she was embarrased to answer it.But she told yes.I was shocked.Later as well heard that she was very good at it.After that conversation,did not feel like concentrating more on the class.I was not able to recognise my emotion.But was not feeling comfortable.It was so suffocating.However the lectures where over.Reached home with a heavy heart!!!!!!!!!
I could not keep it my tummy anymore.My tummy started to pain very badly.So informed my husband about it.He was very happy to hear about the RJ lady and also started prasing about her.I really got so upset.But did not know why.In the night while going to bed i opened my diary to share my day with my great book.I realised about this awkward but one of the common emotion "JEALOUS" .Then also realised that i have Vit 'J' in higher composition.I need to get some medication for this.
I really cannot take this.Yes i really.Whenever there is a good news which also matters to my age group people,i feel good at first.But later i feel demotivated.I feel iam nothing.I have not done enough good deeds in my life wherein people would be benefited.I am a waste body (in my language).
But there was another issue.If i have allowed this awkward emotion to come then i also need to make use of it in a better way.Right????
I need to use this as a weapon for me to motivate myself to as well progress in life.Oh please not again andy...Jab bhi mauka miltha hai...philosophy jhadni shuru....But yes sweety.This life is so beautiful.Why waste with thinking so much.The greatest enemy i founf of myself is thinking.I think so much .Not a single good one.But all the crap.But sometimes it does win over me.Just because sometimes i would be idle,it just occupies me like a monster around.But hey not anymore.Andy is full energetic to destroy you.
So that's the story of me and my stupid emotion.But i never deny,its always helped me to achieve my goals.
Therefore the moral of the story is..just drive you mind towars your goals,keep a objective that is clear to you and also vit 'J' in good amount.
Wow....i do write so beautifully....feeling J or i envy me??????...stop thinking girl...

Love
Andy

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Cold Wars in the Kitchen


We always have a habit to be right always. If the other person challenges us, we forget all our ethics and then plan to win the battle by being right. Because the ego in us makes the move. All do that, and i guess it’s a natural act as well. I always have this tough war going in my mind every time about being right or to be happy. And finally as usual the battle is won by being right and happiness is gone for a toss. But i advice everybody that one should always think to be happy, than being right .I know its very easy to lecture than to follow.
We every time do this with the one whom we are close. And this in turn hurts pains a lot. The feelings here are so natural. I also have this quality in me. I know guys are wrong in guessing my quality. I have a quality of being right than being happy. Whenever there are advices or suggestion or any such thing that involves me being wrong (my thought), my ego is taking a great place. And i by all means give it a chance to take over me .At last the output is i end up being unhappy, hurting someone. But i then introspect when i know that it hurts both me and the other person why i do i actually do it. There should be a way out were i can manage this ego in a right way than hurting someone.
Whenever my husband enters the kitchen there is a cold war in my mind going on.Becuase there a historical background for this. And that’s kitchen is only the birth right of a women. No one else can conquer it.Therefore, even though he cooks well a few of the dishes it’s so difficult for me to give a good comment. But he does not say anything. But if same thing happens with me, there would be a war at home with all the concerns, love, feelings blackmail, etc. I guess with all this cute things happening around the feelings for each other build up very strong. But when all these happen the pain would be very much. So i was thinking how can i change my self a bit. Because i will not be able change much and that would not suit me as well.
Therefore, now a day’s whenever my husband is in kitchen i make sure either am out of the kitchen or i would shut my mouth. This helps me not to be angry without any reason on him and also less fights. This really works. There are no fights, no cold wars, and no misunderstandings. Also that i talk sometime in between with him in the kitchen.
These might be very small things which all may feel very funny. But i never felt that way. May be because i have just begun with my married life so. But anyway i wanted this to be solved before any great disaster coming into our life.
Therefore, ladies i just have one thing to say. Do not take away the right of men managing the kitchen. This gives you the pride of happily spending your time in other jobs than slogging in kitchen always. Give a break to yourself and a chance to your hubby darlings to prove themselves as a great cooks.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

A new begining

There is a new beginning in ones life everytime there is a drastic change in ones life.Like the one that is happening to me.'Marriage' the extremely and lovely relationships among all.Only a few more days to go for it.And am full of mixed emotions.Am very happy that am gonna finally be there with my most beloved man in my life.Am very happy with the way our relationship is going on.Am happy and thankful to god for giving me such a wonderful life partner.Am happy to cherish each and every moment of this phase in my life with my family.Am happy with the way the marriage arrangements are going.But...but....but.....somewhere in the corner of my heart am nervous,sad,emotional......I don't understand what is happening in me.All are happy for me.But am nervous for this new relationship.I do not want anything to go wrong between us.I want to give 200% to this relationship.Want to be a noble couple like that of my parents.Am sad....coz..am moving away from my people here.Only a few more days am with them.My parents,my sis,jiju,niece,...all just love me so much.Cannot think about the day when they would see me off to a unknown place alone.
From there my journey begins with a new phase of life.Here i would be a part of all the major decisions in life.Responsibilites increase.More maturity is expected from me.Expectations are more from all sides.Have to atleast try to keep all this together.It looks so complicated,tough,impossible.
But hey this is a life....i love it.I know i would be a great human bieng at the end of the day...and that's what it matters....i thank my parents and my family to make me a person who iam today..right now...i would definitly not do any such thing that would trouble thier honour and reputation....
I wish myself a very happy married life ahead.May the god almighty shower all his blessings on both of us to make a wonderful life together.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

ONE MORE DAY IN LIFE

When someone asked this question "what will you do if if you have only one more day to live?".It interesting to know how each of us would answer this question.Some wouls say that they would like to make the most of the day.They want ot enjoy each minute.A few would want to spend time in prayers so that they can acheive salvation after death.A few may want to kill thier enemies.Well, i thought over it again and again,then only one thing came into my mind.That i would be doing what exactly am doing now.For today,i even do not know whether i even have one full day more to live.If i have a need to change the way i spend the day,when i know it is the last one,then obviously i am not living the way i should be.Why should i wait for the announcement of my death sentence before making those last minute changes?.
Someonw has givne me this gift of life. I need to utilise the way it has to be.But do we really have something called planned life?well then i guess the answer is NO.There is nothin like a planned living.Everytime we get things that are not planned or we had least expected for.Therefore,when anythin is not planned in life ,why get into an impression saying we have a secured furute before us?
Death is the more scary part of everybodies life.Most of us do not even want to pain our brains for that.The normal understnading about death is that it's a end of an life.An end of living of an human bieng on this earth.But as per our ancestors there is life after death.Therefore,when one lives this world all the religions in this world follow some customes and rituals for the departed soul to rest in peace.It is believed that if the souls do not rest in peace,the humans who live in this world would not live in peace.
To understand this concept of death ,a book called "Many lives, Many masters" by Dr.Brian Weiss just attracted me a few days back.The title itself interested me so much that i could not stop reading it.In this book Dr.Weiss shares his experience that he had while curing one of his patients through a 'past life therapy'.It sounds wierd,but its true.The therapy is useful in eradicating any major phobias in ones life.
The book also shows a clear picture about our purpose to be born and reborn on this planet.If one is not confident enough to carry the task in his /her present life it gets carreid forward to thier next life.The book also refers to the 'masters' who show thier visiblity in between the book as knowledge preachers.They are the ones who show directions to our lives,but unfortunately we fail to recognise them with our conscious minds.They come into picture when we are in our unconscious mind.
The book further says that we live life more than one or seven times as per the general belief.If in all these lives our body and soul suffers pain,we get a new life to overcome this pain.
In this mechanical world wherein we do not know what is in store for us in the next moment,we tend to plan for the next 20-30 yers in terms of making our future secure.We venture into all life helping insurance policies,retirment plan and many more things.In this case,this book comes as a eye opener in order to put light on our lives and to improvise our future.Because all of us only pray for a day to live on this earth with each night and rising morning.Afterall we all live for that each coming day with the enthusiasm to be there the next day day.That is the only hope that keeps us driving.
Be possitive and live life happily!!!!
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Its my pleasure to introduce myself.My name is Andrina.Iam very interetesd to blog,writing artciles ,reading artciles and many more things.