Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Living each minute,each day as if you would never get them back again

All you guys are feeling na..ki andy ko kya hua hai..badi senti ban rahi hai....yes dear's iam senti now.But there's a reason behind this.Just in the noon was feeling bugged with my last moment rush for the squeezing in of assignements.So thought lets download some movie.After a long time i was doing that.So i got 'We are Family' on my list.I did not feel like to watch.As it was sounding too emotional and also its KJ movie.So obviously there would a lot emotional drama.But there was no other go.As other top movies i was fed up of watching.Then it was time to get emotional and wet my T-shirt with tears.
The movie started off very well.Its wherein Kajol and Arjun are divorced and thier cute l'll 3 kids are stuck between them and Kajol's soutan Kareena.Everything goes on well untill its revealed that Kajol has cervical cancer .And she would be living only for few days.Baapre all the emotions break out.Laptop ke andhar bhi rona,laptop ke bahar bhi rona...rona hi rona...So it goes on that way...ab kya main saari ki saari kahani sunao..koi kaam dhanda nahin hai kya...obviously yaar hindi movie hai in the end allz well tho hona hi hai.
But when i was just watching it,i felt something that i thought i should share it with all.My sis always beleives live life king size.So do my parents.I used to always ignore it thinking all are getting senti.But today i realised,how true it is.Lets start living this life with each second in it,with each day in it.And you shall be happy ever after.You may never know whether you would be able to watch the sunrise of tomorrow.Because,that's the only secret god has never revealed to mankind.The death.
When you want your wishes to come true,make it come true.Do not wait for tomorrow.
If you love someone very much,please admit to them that yes i love you.Try to keep the loved ones around you happy,a smile can make thier day and they would never forget you.
Live life so beautifully that the almighty would feel proud and honoured that he is your creator.


Thursday, September 16, 2010

My Diary

Everyday i think i should pen down some or the other things of my day in my sweet diary.But somtimes never find any time.But i just love the way i write.Honeslty.I can be a good writer.I always can think about that option.Just kidding.No need of doing that funny face for this.
But honestly keeping a diary to pen down your daily updates,its so refreshing.It helps to go back to it anytime whenever you are in a good mood.I do that.I feel my life,the way i have dipicted in my diary in just like another hindi movie.You have fights,romance,friends,jealousy,stubborn,bitchy,so on......No wonder when one day people would definitly hear my name as an author or movie writer.
I feel so good whenever i just look back into those pages which i have written already.I would have mixed emotions and feeling.We go through so much in our lives so smoothly ,isn't it?
Do we anytime get tired of what's going on in our lives?i guess sometime yes.We give up easily.As i have done so many times as per my diary.Just felt so foolish and idioit for my acts.I reacted so wierdly for so many things in my life without even realising that i am hurting my people as well.But that's life.And am not a daily soap zee,sony or Star TV actress who would be so good no matter how bad and monstorus the people around her are.
I have realised one thing.Many disastrous events have occured in my life.But i have never gone away from my diary writing skill.It has always been my dahling.I guess its always important for one to be connected to one's emotion and feeling.And diary can help you very much.You can fight,convince,hate,love anything you want with it.It would not say anything.It would accept you without complaining.Such a sweetheart.Why can't people be that way.We are always judgemental and assumption freaks.
So my advice to those who have this great skill of writing diary,please do not let it go.Its your strength,a mirror ,a shadow of you.Trust it!

Friday, September 10, 2010

Jealousy-a big bug

"hey andy she is so beautiful na?", "do you know that he got a promotion?","hey you know she sings very well"....god i cannot take it.Really its not the others who cannot take the progress or happiness of others.But its me.Beleive me.Did not realise this till date.But recently when i was attending my regular counselling course this great incident happened.It was life changing as well.
One of my coursemate who also is an indian by origin and also my great friend always would be with me.We would have lot of fun together.But on that day another indian lady came to us and just spoke to her saying hey are you the same lady who used to RJ in the singapore indian music station? she was embarrased to answer it.But she told yes.I was shocked.Later as well heard that she was very good at it.After that conversation,did not feel like concentrating more on the class.I was not able to recognise my emotion.But was not feeling comfortable.It was so suffocating.However the lectures where over.Reached home with a heavy heart!!!!!!!!!
I could not keep it my tummy anymore.My tummy started to pain very badly.So informed my husband about it.He was very happy to hear about the RJ lady and also started prasing about her.I really got so upset.But did not know why.In the night while going to bed i opened my diary to share my day with my great book.I realised about this awkward but one of the common emotion "JEALOUS" .Then also realised that i have Vit 'J' in higher composition.I need to get some medication for this.
I really cannot take this.Yes i really.Whenever there is a good news which also matters to my age group people,i feel good at first.But later i feel demotivated.I feel iam nothing.I have not done enough good deeds in my life wherein people would be benefited.I am a waste body (in my language).
But there was another issue.If i have allowed this awkward emotion to come then i also need to make use of it in a better way.Right????
I need to use this as a weapon for me to motivate myself to as well progress in life.Oh please not again andy...Jab bhi mauka miltha hai...philosophy jhadni shuru....But yes sweety.This life is so beautiful.Why waste with thinking so much.The greatest enemy i founf of myself is thinking.I think so much .Not a single good one.But all the crap.But sometimes it does win over me.Just because sometimes i would be idle,it just occupies me like a monster around.But hey not anymore.Andy is full energetic to destroy you.
So that's the story of me and my stupid emotion.But i never deny,its always helped me to achieve my goals.
Therefore the moral of the story is..just drive you mind towars your goals,keep a objective that is clear to you and also vit 'J' in good amount.
Wow....i do write so beautifully....feeling J or i envy me??????...stop thinking girl...